Just giving it a try

God never gives his gifts away.
For every penny you will pay:
Old age for youth, for birth - the death,
There is no way to stop the mess.

I lived my life as it was,
I've never tried to be the boss.
I had a boat, But with no oars.
Could it be any worse?

Why haven't I tried to change myself?
Why haven't I tried to change myself for her?
Why haven't I tried to change everything?
And now she's gone...